A nonbeliever but not an Atheist!
Many people believe that if you don’t believe in any kind of god then you are automatically an ‘atheist.’ However, I don’t believe in god but I don’t label myself as an atheist. Many atheists, though not all, don’t believe in god not because there’s absolutely no god but because they don’t have any proof that god exists. I don’t know whether they’d believe in god should someone prove beyond any reasonable doubt that god does indeed exist or if god all of a sudden comes and proves by himself/herself that he/she does indeed exist.I don’t see myself as an atheist because my nonbelief isn’t based on the existence or the nonexistence of god. Whether or not god exists, I still wouldn’t believe in god. I don’t see any role god plays in my life whether or not he/she exists. The tenets of life which I apply to value every human beings are internal to me not imposed from without. So I don’t see any reason why some ‘heavenly’ being would be interested in my praising him and condemning myself in order to win favors.
A powerful god would make me what he/she wants me to be anyway if he/she is the one who created me; so showering him/her with praises to win favors sounds like what many Africans do to their dictators. What’s the difference between an African dictator and a god who fancies being praised? The aim is to win favors in the government and national resources from the African leaders and to win afterlife in the case of god. I know this sounds simplistic but this is the state of affairs with the god thing. Prayers belittle gods and are superfluous for us.So the onus is on god to tell me why I should believe in him.
While I don’t believe in god, I don’t go around denigrating religious people. Human beings are fallacious and weak entities and we thrive on fancies and imagination. To try to destroy that is complete utopia. People prefer to feel good rather than be right. We lie so many times to make our friends feel good even when we know we are lying. That’s the essence of our human-ness.I understand atheists have the best of intentions. They don’t discriminate anyone on any basis and they’d want people to use logic, reason and science to be the basis of our life. But that sounds like the very same utopia of heavenly afterlife religious people have drummed onto our eardrums for centuries if not millennia!
To try to institutionalize atheism as an antagonistic organization against institutionalized religions is as fallacious and as wrong as the utopia church leaders have tried for centuries.The beauty of not believing in god is the personalized understanding of oneself and what one wants in life and the moral standing one forges for oneself and exercises towards fellow human beings. Nonbelief could exist as clubs and professional associations but not as a proselytizing institution.
Religions is not bad as a concept in itself. What makes it unpalatable is its being as an institution. Institutionalization of atheism in a church-manner is a mockery of logic and reason.